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First of all, thank you for visiting my blog during your freetime. Hope you enjoy your time ^^
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What I wanna tell you.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

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Monday, January 19, 2009

Has been sick for like 3 days ? argh .. mus be the stress from recent stuffs. Nvm, shall nt mention bout it no more. Well, had a surprise today. iModels International (a model company) called and tell me that they are seeking for new models for magazines and thus was asking me if i was interested to go down for interview tml so to let the interviewers hav a look at me in real person. I rejected them in the end though, nt realli interested in freelance modeling. But actually to think can earn a bit of money by letting ppl take photo of me isnt too bad eh ? But then i scare later my pictures spoil thier cameras. U noe camera not cheap ok, later they wan me pay how ? lol. Nt only me la, rx also kena. This is actually the second time we kena the model stuff. First time at dhoby ghaut, this time at bugis. Both different company though. Thier people go to the streets and seek those which they think can qualify to go for interview, so i dunno whether we are lucky or that day they nv wear specs or eyes got problem. Anyone who has similar experience can come share with me at the tagbox, make my tagbox more active :D. Till then, see ya guys :)

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Tuesday, January 13, 2009

i've been staring at the screen for at least half an hour thinkin how should i start, there is juz too much things in my mind i wanna frustrate. i had a seriously bad day today (13/1) basically im already troubling over a friend's love problem becuz im somehow involved. To make things worst, the traffic police gave me a call during my work and inform me about my dad was brought away by the police due to a past accident he haven settled and i hav to bring a bailer (my mum) down to bail him out. i became realli moody after the call, i had no motivation to work at all. To make things EVEN worst, a lady came and complain to me about our products saying that we made a mistake blahx3, becuz it wasnt me that served her, i couldnt do anything, plus we did not make a mistake at all. Then she throw her temper on me instead, saying wat the girl nv explain to her the details and wat she is very busy and she has to waste her time on this kind of shit, and then critisize our management. Whoa i tell u, i was realli about to snap already, it wasnt my fault so why she is throwing everything on me, im her venting machine ah ? i controlled myself and tell her nicely again, she gave me that oh-so-scary face and then walked away. Whats more, the business was seriously bad, whole freakin day the sales not exceeding 80 dollars. i didnt even wanted to sms this kind of sales to my manager at the end of the day. its like givin him the impression im not working seriously. i even cut my thumb merely by opening a bottle of water chestnut. i am seriously down on my luck. Later on i rushed home straight after work and skipping my dinner becuz i hav to bring my mum down to bail my dad out. When we reached there my mum is required to sign a bail bond form which states clearly if my dad fail to attend the court she hav to pay the amount of 10k or if she fails to pay she has to be imprisoned for not more then 6 months. After she sign it i saw her eyes went red, deep inside me i knew it right away, that is becuz shes got another matter to worry despite the problems we are having already. Looking at my frail and aged mother tearing, my heart seriously sank. My mother is the breadwinner of the family and she still has to take care of the family. Do u guys noe how tough is it for a near 60 women to still support a family like that ?! Hasnt she has enough problems to worry already ?! What more does my father wan from us !? How long more can my mum be with me before she collapse !? How much more does she needs to suffer before she can enjoy her life ?! Lookin at her white hair and wrinkled face, my eyes went red, my nose felt so sour. My mum had suffered till now becuz of my dad. I realli wanted to cry. But im bitting my teeth and clenching my fist so hard to hold my tears. I tell myself im a man, i shed blood but not tears. But how long can a man's pride hold him out ..? How many of u out there can truely understand my sorrow ? As the only child, i felt so useless.. so helpless .. All i can do now is work part time job to liften my mum's burden becuz im still schooling. That is why i get furious whenever friends say thier problem is worst even when they are actually living in luxury. People which had nt been through poverty will not understand OUR pain. I noe few of u out there is nodding ur head with me, which is why i believe people who had been through bitterness and hardship will be polished to a better and stronger person. Some people can tell me your problem is not worse then mine, i fail my O's. HAVE I NOT BEEN THROUGH THAT ? HOW CAN I NOT NOE ? I cant believe they can actually still argue with me .. they are reflecting a image upon themselves which shows how immature and naive they are. I dont like to shoot people right into thier face becuz i respect them as a friend but if u cross over my limit, i assure u im not a person to mess with, considering it verbally or physically. My gd buddies will noe this point of me very well. I want to thank you guys for reading my pour-out post. < = ) I feel much much better now. A final piece of advice, when u guys start a family in the future, be responsible and mature. Because it is usually the children who suffers, especially the only child.

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Friday, January 2, 2009

Happy New Year !

yeaaaa ! happy new year guys ! oh god, im 19 this year .. i realli hope this year will be a woooonderful year since i have suay-ed like .. 18 years ? =.= .. went countdown at marina bay on new year's eve, it was freaaaking crowded that day. when we reached marina bay and company sy and friends, we felt it was too boring and so we (me, rx and vege boy) decided to go vivo instead. and then it turns out sy coming along with us too. must be because of me la, cannot blame LOL. so we walked our way towards the mrt and then we saw teng jin, wei qiang and friends halfway, they also goin marina bay, make us hesitate our decision to vivo. and then continuing to mrt, jing x2 called sy and say his gang also goin marina bay. so we decided to go back to marina instead but then i fetch hong hao from mrt first since i was making him wait too long. THEN when we walk back to marina, teng jin called me and say they goin vivo =.= wtf, because it was too crowded at marina, but then we still go marina in the end. when we reach the marina there de area. true enough, it was SUUUPER crowded. walking few metres also take some time, wakao. that day especially have a lot of indians, dont ask me, i dunno why. surprisingly its was more like little india rather then marina bay. there was indian all around, sitting along the road, standing and chatting, walking with us -_- etc etc. so we made our way through the swarm of people and reaching the bridge outside our glorious singapore durian building. and no, they do not sell durian there. we waited there sweating like hell for the fireworks and it wasnt even like the countdown because we dont freaking noe how many seconds to midnight =.= . so when the fireworks light up, everyone was cheering and clapping. (will upload the firework photos on nxt post) it was all gd until a freaking indian (not trying to be racist) whistle all the way from start till the fireworks end. u noe the type of whistle where people put the thumb and the index finger in thier mouth and blow ? it was super ear piercing as it was damn high pitch, it not only irritate me, even people near him told him to stop, but he juz continue to whistle his way through like there was no tomorrow. super pissed off. after the fireworks, we decided to play pool until morning so we went to meet jing x2 and gang first. on our way, because it was super crowded mah, so people juz squeeze here and there to get through, then this is where the molesting session begin. at first its rixin lol, a indian guy was walking front of him near to the side. swinging his hand back and fourth widely macham helping rx PCC LOL. and yea the indian got hit rx's **** ROFL. u guys can go to his blog on my link to see his frustration of that day lmao. and after that it was my turn =.= . no i did not get PCC-ed but there was this indian holding my waist and leaning closely to my back when i walk. I WAS TOTALLY FREAK OUT LA, im nt sure if its the same guy but im sure if he did not mistake me as his gf, he most probably is a gay =.= . so that day basically the whole group of us hated the indians lol. we walked from afternoon all the way to next morning except the time where we watch movie. the pool and lan shop was all in full house so in the end we go watch movie. i bet all these walking train our leg muscles 10 times more then gym lol. we ton until nxt morning and then took the first bus home. WHAAAT A DAY ! O:

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